Fashionista in Italy 6

Saturday 28 March

The Decision

He stared into my eyes. His look was too strong, I had to look away.
"Please,"
"Don't beg!" I told him, holding up my hand.
I hate it when people beg, except when it's me and I deserve it.
"I'll come with you!" he grabbed my hands in his.
Our elbows were bent and our arms up, our hands by our cheeks.
He pulled me closer, staring into my eyes, "I love you!" he told me.
"I love you!" I told him.
I told Fernando I was leaving and he said, "Si, Bella! I can not see you go!" he kissed me on each cheek four times!
"I will miss you forever!" he hugged me and so did his boyfriend.
We had all become very good friends since that first show. It had binded us together.
I was sad to see them go but knew my life was changing and they couldn't fit into it anymore.
"Cioa, Bella!" he never did call me Ruth, that was the last words I ever heard Fernando speak.
We never did stay in touch.



I've seen him in the papers since. He's a really big movie star now, we go to see his movies at the cinema all the time. Edward doesn't believe me that I knew him and gave him his first big break. His first ever publicist and agent was watching the fashion show that night. He handed Fernando his card and changed Fernando's life forever.
I told my boutique boss I was leaving and she cried. I had never seen a middle-aged woman cry before. My mum never did get very emotional. Some people said she was cold but I knew that was just her way of saying, 'I love you' with silence. She would soon have someone else to cover my job, it was a really great starting point for someone.
That was it. All my links in Roma and the rest of Italy.

Roma, Roma, Roma,
How I've grown to miss you,
I nearly kissed you,
But I had to say,
Goodbye.

I kissed a coin and through it over my head before we had to go one last time into that famous fountain again, and wished...